Sunday 1 January 2012

New Year

After a month of pain I know now I must move on with my life, and make this better in some way. The pain can only heal if move on with my life and let time heal me. The hardest thing I've ever had to do is move on from him and accept the fact that we are not together. I feel like I'm made of china right now and I'm speeding toward a brick wall. And we all know what happens when china hits a brick wall.
If i could wave a magic wand and take my pain away I would.
I used to believe that karma was real, and that when you died you moved on and you get what you give out, ghosts were real, and that there was more to this world than what we see, but the past months events and how increasingly bad it is becoming I have realised that no way on earth is an of that true. I tried to pull myself together, but then on Wed 21st Dec I was thrown straight back thanks to the actions of an inconsiderate jerk, and his total disregard for my feelings and morality. (Not the man, this was a random strange man and his actions are too painful to put on here)
So it must be true that what i believed is rubbish or I would have been saved from that pain and that experience.
Maybe it is time to go blonde?

P.S MISS LAURA COX, YOU ARE ONE AMAZING LADY, I WILL REPLY TO YOUR MESSAGE NOW I'M ONLINE PROPERLY NOW. THANK-YOU MY LOVELY LADY XXXXXX









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