Tuesday, 24 January 2012

two months on

Today marks the two month anniversary of me being dumped. Whoever said it'd be better by now was talking utter bollocks. I still feel low and betrayed.. None of this is helped by sucky friends. I asked 2 people for help yesterday, I've never asked either of them before but I'm expected to dust them off when their shit goes arse up. Guess what. They both said NO to me. so they've made the "cut tossers out my life" list. Yet one person who has never asked me for anything helped me. The lovely Miss Laura Cox came to my aid and we had therapeutic texts. For that I am very grateful. So thank-you.
One thing I have discovered this week also, is what utter liars people are. My so called friend is apparently spinning me a line. It would be nice if they grew a pair and admitted they'd been telling me naughty fibs. I deserve the truth.We promised to always tell each other the truth about everything. Now it seems I'm not worth something I was once promised. I'm deeply hurt that they can't be honest with me. Deeply hurt. It would be nice for them to feel like our friendship meant enough to be honest. I'm not stupid, I know, I just need to hear it come out your mouth.
If it was me lying to you, you'd be hurt, and you'd wonder why i couldn't come to you and tell you the truth.

two months on, and I'm in this rut, maybe its time now, to stop being everyone else's doormat and start being who I want to be, starting with the truth from people and carry on cutting the tossers out.

1 comment:

  1. I think getting things down on paper 'albeit electronic' is really helping you :) You'll get there Kylie you just gotta stay strong xxx